Today’s post about inexplicable book love inaugurates two series: the regularly scheduled Friday “Why?” and the whenever-the-heck-we-feel-like-it Why I Love It.
Sometimes the depth of my love for a book is inexplicable, even to me.
I felt this way about TWILIGHT (the first book more than the subsequent ones, which I liked a lot less). The characters annoyed me; I felt like we were constantly told that Bella was tough, but only saw her being sniveling and moonish. Edward struck me as a condescending prick. I agree with every feminist critique.
Yet I was complet
ely captivated by the story as they fell for each other and Bella pursued the mystery of the Cullens. The week after I read the book, I reread the first 300 pages — up until when they were definitively together. Ironically, once the actual suspense plot emerged in the form of threat from other vampires, the story was over for me; the story I’d fallen for was Bella and Edward falling for each other, and from this point on I thought the book consisted entirely too much of them talking about their great love for one another. Ugh. But despite the contempt I sometimes felt for the book while I was reading it, I clearly got something out of it. I’m a slow reader, and rereading 300 pages is not something I do lightly.
This, in a way, is how I feel about my favorite Sarah Dessen novel, THE TRUTH ABOUT FOREVER.

The Truth About Forever
TTAF is a flawed book, much more so, in my opinion, than THIS LULLABY or JUST LISTEN (which I think is objectively her best book*).
The main problem with it is that several of the characters are completely caricatured. When I read it, I adjust it in my head so that one character (Jason) suffers from serious Asperger’s syndrome, while another (Monica) is mildly retarded; it’s the only way I can make sense of their behavior. (And that’s not even getting into Macy’s coworkers at the library.)
Sometimes the inexplicable characterizaton is Dessen stretching her love of metaphor too far. That’s my take on one character (Delia)’s refusal to fix a big freakin’ hole in her driveway, because “some things are better left unfixed,” or some such nonsense. No… that would be false. The crater in your driveway is better off fixed, and Dessen’s better off when she’s not sacrificing believable characters to make her point.
Worse yet, for me, I feel like Dessen stacks the deck at the book’s climax. Without giving away specifics of the denouement, let’s just say that when a character needs to finally make a choice that the entire book has been building toward, Dessen makes the path she’s already won the readership to even more blindingly obvious by having someone act like a complete ass. Not necessary.
So why do I call this my favorite Dessen novel? Because I feel compelled to re-read it every nine months or so, and I love it every time. The appeal of this kind of book, for me, is the fantasy of the guy falling for me; with Wes, it’s an attractive fantasy. And what Dessen, like Meyer in TWILIGHT, utterly masters in TTAF is the slow build from crush to relationship — with plenty of small advances along the way. It’s these small moments — the unexpected escalation of the flirtation — that are what I read and re-read for.
One of the TTAF reviewers on Amazon complains that Wes is utterly bland; one of my favorite book bloggers even calls his ability to solve Macy’s problems, all while lacking a personality of his own, “Sarah Dessen Syndrome.”**
They’re not wrong, but maybe for me that’s the point; he’s the perfect foil for a book that’s really
about Macy. What’s appealing about Wes is that he falls for Macy. But Dessen makes it fun by not dwelling on telling us about Macy’s feelings of unlovability; instead, she lets us feel Macy’s roller coaster of continuous humiliation punctuated by amazement at the growing realization that this guy actually likes her. It works for me.
I think that’s also why THIS LULLABY didn’t do quite as much for me, especially the first time I read it. Don’t get me wrong: I enjoyed it just fine, and expect to for years to come. But the point of this book is in large part imagining quirky Dexter falling for you, and the thing is — I’ve had that kind of quirky boyfriend. And frankly, mine was better.
* excluding from consideration Lock and Key, which I’m not reading until the paperback comes out in April; Dessen is one of the authors that provokes my pronounced book-buying fetish.
** This same blogger’s “Sarah Dessen Syndrome 2″ (from the same post), namely the guy bugging the girl until she realizes he was right all along, her emphatic “Not interested!” did mean nothing, and he’s perfect for her!, is something I find a lot harder to tolerate. This is my biggest issue with THIS LULLABY.
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January 30, 2009 at 9:57 am
Why do I love it? These are precisely the words that banner through my brain every 1,000 words or so as I read Stephanie Meyer’s Twilight. As a middle school teacher, I picked up Twilight for the first time in order to stay ahead of the curve in my classroom, and because I was curious to see if this book would have the drama my own Stephanie (12 years old) was always telling me is *tragically* absent from my classroom library. Determined to prove her wrong about my taste in YA books, I bought Twilight and started reading it on the train home.
I couldn’t put it down.
As I finish each book, I give it to Stephanie, and each morning we gush about our latest musings on the tumultuous lives of Bella, Edward, and Jacob.
A week ago I binged on http://www.stepheniemeyer.com “deleted scenes,” and afterwards had to purge by watching YouTube videos with titles like, “Twilight is Gay” and, “Twilight Sucks.”
Three days ago there was a fight in my classroom between two boys who wanted first dibs on the last book in the series.
What is going on!?
January 30, 2009 at 2:56 pm
Oh my god, yes. I thought about doing a whole big post with all of my views about Twilight, but I realized it would be absurd, so I’m splitting it into very little parts. But in a way, it all comes back to this: I don’t like it. But I sort of love it.
January 30, 2009 at 3:09 pm
Elizabeth, I can’t find your email addy, but EMAIL ME because the Sarah Dessen conversation is too epic to have over comments! beveragegirl AT gmail DOT com
January 30, 2009 at 8:21 pm
Hey Lixz! Great blog. I do the occasional book review on Muruch, but not a specific genre like this. I highly recommend The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, if you haven’t already read it. Technically a YA book, but one of the most intelligent and emotional novels I’ve ever read.
Anyway, I feel the same way about Twilight as you do! I loved the first 3 books even though, like you, I hate how needy Bella was and what a jerk Edward was (I liked Jacob). I thought that last craptastic book finally broke my addiction, but the movie made me remember how much I enjoyed the first book even through my annoyance with the characters.
January 31, 2009 at 11:48 am
Oh man, I *love* THE BOOK THIEF. So, so much. I also liked Zusack’s THE MESSENGER. It’s not as amazing, but it’s fun.
Jacob was my favorite character too. The parts narrated by him in BREAKING DAWN were the only parts I thought had any life. And I *still* haven’t seen the movie because I have only one friend willing to see it with me, and we’ve had trouble scheduling a time.
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November 27, 2009 at 5:00 am
I felt the *exact* same way about the book. and the movie, actually. it’s so…meh…feeling for me, I just finished writing a paper on the insane anti-feminist ideas in the series, yet I love it. Mostly Twilight, though I am suffering through some severe Jacob love, so I read New Moon more than once. so much so that I wish the entire concept of the werewolves in the Twilight series had been in a totally separate series. Written by someone who *wasn’t* writing an entire treatise about abstinence. And who didn’t use oogy ideas like imprinting. because seriously? how creepy is *that* nonsense? I want to send a mass email to every 14 year old girl clarifying: IMPRINTING = CREEPY, NOT ROMANTIC! seriously. parents would get a restraining order against someone for “imprinting” on their kid.
November 27, 2009 at 10:19 am
Seriously! I loved Jacob most of the time — I found the parts of the fourth book narrated by him to be the only sort of fun parts — but the imprinting was totally creepy. And, I feel lame saying this about Twilight, but it also just didn’t make SENSE to me. What were the rules? It wasn’t a part of the world I could believe in.
Honestly, that contributed to the creep — I can accept a lot in a fantasy social system. But it has to make some level of sense.
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